I've seen some others do it, so I'll do it as well.

Ask me anything, and I'll give you my complete, honest answer for the next 2 days.

Tags: honest for 48 hours.
Current Music: Your mom, moaning ^___^

I'm passionate about a few things.

1. Love, and my Mate, Dixie. When it comes to a relationship, I belive in putting my partner first in everything, and keeping them in mind in everything that I do. My partner matters more to me than my job, family, or even my own life. I look foward to the day that when school and work no long keep us apart.

I do not belive in casual love, casual sex, casual trust, or casual freindships. Someone I'm willing to call "freind" is somone that I actualy love. Otherwise, they're just an associate. Polygamy, plural-relationships, and swingers... I do not understand the lifestyle and I dont care to. I think its rather distateful, to say the least.

2. Shooting. I was born with a gun in my hand. Dad taught me how to shoot a .22 revolver when I was three and I've been keeping up with it ever since. I shoot everything from snubby .38s for self defence pratice, to handgun and rifle matches. I have only done 2 matches this year, but I hope to do more in the future. In most competitions I enter I place in the top 5 and almost never leave without a prize or cash. I'm also a handloader, ocasional hunter, and a very firm supporter of 2nd amendment rights.

3. Reading. I love to read. Everything from encyclopedias and history books to scifi novels and classic literature. Books are to me an open canvas, far better than any movie could ever be. Dont get me wrong, I do love a good movie, but film pales in comparison to the art of literature. Feel free to recomend books for me at anytime, and also feel free to ask me for reading sugestions if you ever want to try something new. I've read everything from Mien Kampf to the U.S. Constution, and books on a great many religions from around the world.

4. Art. I'll admit I'm no fan of the modern art movement, and I think that Jackson Pollock's work was a waste of canvas and paint. I love classical and acient art, and also Impressionistic work. I myself love to draw and sculpt, and I'm slowly building my skills. I once was a talented artist, but years of not drawing anything caused me to loose much of what I knew. I blame the internet for it, but one of the things that trouble me the most is finding inspiriation. It seems I have a hard time kickstarting my imagination and coming up with subjects to draw.

5. The American west. Not the west of cowboy movies and CMT, The real west. I've done a fair amount of travelling through the mid and northwest of the US, and I love the area. At one time, I actually lived on an Indian Reservation and got a taste of Native American culture that few get to experience. I'm very honest about what I saw and experienced as well. My heart and soul belong to the Badlands of South Dakota.... wich brings me to #6

6. The Badlands of South Dakota. I've been alot of places in the US, but no place I've ever been speaks to my soul like the badlands do. I cant really explain it, or even describe it. All I can say is that each time I've been in the Badlands has been a spiritual experience for me. I feel so at home, and so alive there. I've told Dixie, and my family that when I die, I want my body cremated, and my ashes to be scattered through the Badlands. Its likely as close to heaven as I'll ever get.

Tags: writer's block
Current Location: Pony's Barn!
Current Music: Metallica ~ My freind of Misery

I saw where the wild things are tonight. The movie is very well made, with beautiful art and effects, but I gotta say, instead of being wild, the Monsters are all manic-depressive and somewhat insane. It may disapoint a few.

Sceens exsist with owls being pelted by stones, threats of murder, and the forceful removal of one of the mosters arm's by one of his freinds. Throughout the film,the monsters go on tearful, whiney tireades about how bad their lives are and how depressed they feel.

Not what I expected, but still funny.

Cup a Joe's in Hillsborough, NC is the best coffee shop ever. No starbucks, Dunkin Donuts, or even Port City Java comes even close to the quality of their coffee. Its also pretty cheap!

I tend to go by there every 2 to 3 days for my fix.

Tags: american express, local business, shine a light, writer's block

Lots of things on my mind today, and somtimes I feel like I'm treading on the edge of sanity. I'll get through the bad parts, though, like I uausally do. Life can be a bitch somtimes, ya know?

In other news, the local furry group is doing a movie today. Toy Story 1 & 2, shown back to back, in 3D at one of the local theaters. I'm not a huge fan of the toy story series, and I cant stand to sit through two movies... I just cant sit that long period... So I'm going to be meeting them afterwards for hanging out.

I've been a bit lazy on some art I've promised out. I need to do a few conbadges for some freinds. Eventually I'll get to them, looking for the right mood to strike. Perhaps it will be today.

Next week I go away for training, and should be back on either Thursday or Friday. Not sure which day yet, but the powers that be are being so dang vague about this. I'd love to get clear instructions just once :P

When I get back, who knows? Next weekend is my weekend off call, so I may try to make the jorney to visit my family. We'll see if that happens or not.

I really need to get back into therapy, and I'm hoping that it happens next month. I can feel how going 6 months without has caused some backsliding and thats something I do not want. The journey to being a better, happier pony must continue.

Those of you that know me personally know that I'm a goverment employee and held to a pretty high standard as far as work ethics go. I'm sworn to do my duty and failing to do so can get me into trouble. That said, its a pretty easy going job, outside of firefighting and uasually pretty fun.

Today, I went to visit a rural landowner who owned a farm, and wanted a forest management plan on his timber. We do several of these plans each week, and they're uasually pretty mundane. Look at the trees, determine their health, age, stocking, density, etc, and write a report that reflects what should be done to improve the health of the forest.

Shortly after meeting the farmer, he mentions a gay pride parade that he saw on the news, and makes the comment "I saw them faggots all marching on TV. I dont call 'em gays. I call 'em faggots and queers. I dont know what yall think about them, or even care what anyone thinks about it, but I do know what the Bible says about it..." He rambled on for a few moments before my coworker changed the subject to other things.

At first, I was a bit suprised, and then hurt. I was here to serve this man, and he insults me, even if indirectly. In this situation, what should I have done? Should I asked him questions, to determine why he felt that way, and then point out other "things the bible says?" or should I simply have refused to conduct his exam and left? Prior to this, me and this landowner have got along very well, as he's on one of the fire departments I work with on a regular basis. Would I have been better served to simply tell him that I'm gay and I find his comments offensive?

Not really sure what I should have done, or really what I should feel about this. Any advice, insight, or even any comment is welcomed.

Current Mood: curious

I've been quiet on here for a while, and I apologise for that.

In the morning, I leave for Crossnore in the Moutains of NC for some training. I should be back on friday night. Those of you that know me, you can probably get in touch with me by text if you need me. Crossnore is known for having terrible phone reception.

See yall later!

I guess you could say I've got 3 dream jobs. One of them was to be a Forest Ranger. I did make that dream happen. Being a Forest Ranger is fun. Its a job filled with variety. From fighting forest fires, to planting trees, and explaining to homeowners how to care for their trees, its a very varried job. The pay isnt so good, and the on call hours suck, but it is a job that I enjoy most of the time.

My other dream jobs were to be a long distance truck driver, or to be a mechanic. I love to drive, but now days I'm not sure if I'm cut out to drive 40 hours a week. I think it would get old quick.

I do still love mechanical things, and I hope one day to build a sports car for myself. But on Forest Ranger pay, I dont know if I'll be able to afford it.

Tags: dream job, monster, monster jobs, writer's block

...or should I say healthy as a horse?

I just got back from a long trip, and on much of that trip, I had little choice but to eat some pretty unhealthy things. Add to that, I dont really take care of myself like I should.

This morning, I stepped on my scale and I saw 320lbs. It shocked me. I havent weighed that much since my freshman year of college, 9 years ago.

Starting tomorow morning, I'm going to work hard on loosing weight and getting back in shape. My current goal is 250lbs. After I get there, I'll see if I need to loose more or not. I've lost down to that weight before, but I got lazy again and over the following years, I gained it back. Most of it after I stopped smoking.

I hope to update this every few days and let yall know how I'm doing. Feel free to comment! I'll need the support!

I've been away forever, its seems, but I've been on a trip with Dixie for the last few weeks. Drove across the country, and saw some awesome things, and then flew back. If you tried to call me during that time, chances are, I didnt get your call, because I was in no-service areas the whole time.

Got alot of things to do at home, if I can just get of my lazy pony butt for a bit. I'll probably make several more posts today as I get stuff together.